Monday, June 4, 2012

Having a lot to write about but not having the time to do it is terrible.  Having the time to write but being unable to think of anything to write is even worse.

I'm coming off of a busy week of 9-6 classes but it is a long holiday weekend and I've reach the point where I've gotten most of my work done and now I do not know what to do with myself.  Most of the weekend has been rainy so my days of lounging out in the sun are over.  (Goodbye Irish summer!)  I know there are plenty of things for me to do but I am struggling to come up with even one good solution.

I've done a half hearted run around the block, I have 5 books all started that I'm struggling to continue reading, and two different stories that I just cannot find the motivation to continue writing.  Actually, doing a load of laundry has probably been the most productive thing I've done in the past 3 days.

 Do you ever feel like the more time you have to do something, the harder it is to get the simplest things done?

I relish my free time, however I feel so much more productive and driven when I have a limited amount of time to get tasks done.  Now that I have an excess of free time I don't know what to do with myself.

I've started following a lot of new blogs lately and they've made me realize that I am sadly passionless.  Whether they are writing about running, cooking, spirituality, fashion or reading; all of these people have such a strong passion for something.  I could set my clock by the time my neighbor comes home every day to begin his two hours of guitar practice.  Where does he find the drive to do this?  Don't get me wrong, I love a lot of things.  I have a strong interest in pretty much everything I just listed above.  I love traveling, reading, writing, watching tv, music, photography, exercise (to an extent), food (when I get to eat it), I've played instruments and several sports, I've studied languages and history and yet not one of these stands out to me as a "passion."

One of the biggest pieces of advice people often give is "do what you are passionate about."  I firmly believe that whatever it is I choose to do I will enjoy and excel in, but I'm struggling to figure out what it is that I would actually love to do.

Are people just born with these passions or do they grow into them? If anyone has any excess passion I'd be happy to take it off your hands!

Side note:  I'm very proud of neighbor-man.  It seems like just yesterday he was working on mastering the scales and today he is giving me a beautiful rendition of "What Child is This".

Here's a picture of clouds to make up for my woe is me post.

1 comment:

  1. Thank you for sharing your post! I too struggle with being more driven when I have less time. Yet something I've come to understand is that stillness is okay. I don't always have to be doing something. So when those moments come when I have time yet I can't form the words for my blog post I step away. Frustrating, I know, but it just means it's not the right time. Looking forward to following your journey. xo