2+ Months

Tuesday, August 19, 2014

It's been over two months now since Josh left for his deployment.  It's been just over two weeks since he's left the country to go to his duty station.  It has been hard.  Other than the two days it took for him to get to his base, we've managed to talk at least a bit each day. But, considering he is 7 hours ahead of me, it is hard to talk for long.  For the few hours we are both awake at the same time, I am at work so communication during the week is limited to online messages. We get to video chat on the weekends but sometimes that makes it even harder.  Being able to see him but knowing he is so far away just kind of amplifies the feeling of distance.  Having the ability to at least do that is a godsend, but after two months not being able to see his face regularly has taken a toll.

I think we've both had our fair share of "how the hell are we going to do this for xx amount longer?" moments.  Luckily, I think we've been good about taking turns with the sad feelings.  I'm afraid to even think about what it will be like if we are both feeling that down at the same time.

I know we still have a long way to go, but we're in the home stretch.  He's where he will be for the rest of the deployment and he can finally settle in and focus on what he needs to do to get through it, instead of constantly having to think about the next step in the process.

I really don't know what else to do but take it one day at a time.  I keep thinking about what things will be like when he gets back, but I've found if I think about it I just get sad that he's not here now.  But, at the same time, one of the things that keeps me happily busy is planning things so I keep falling back into too much thinking mode.

Only 8ish months left....

1 comment:

  1. i feel ya girl! I will be doing this LDR for 1 year, with next month being me visiting him at his place. 9 hrs ahead is pretty challenging when it comes to communicate. But we both manage to have a 9pm (me)/6am (him) facetime session even if it's for 5 minutes. Just seeing his face waking up makes me happy! Distance makes the heart grow fonder!